"The Holidays"

Yes, we have finally made it into "the holiday season". I was thinking today about how Thanksgiving and Christmas have changed so much over the past few years. Of course, their meanings haven't changed, but my feelings about the days have. This year has been especially hard, even now. I have been thinking a lot about my grandparents, wishing I could just talk to them. I wanted to call my grandma when I found out I was pregnant, but obviously couldn't. I am so used to seeing both of them on Thanksgiving and Christmas and know I will miss that part of those days very much. I have also been worrying about being able to spend enough time with everyone in both my family and Rob's family (well, almost everyone). There seems to be a conflict with that every year and this year has been no different. I hate to try to make changes in peoples plans, but know that is necessary if Rob and I want to be with everyone. We haven't resolved anything yet and that weighs heavily on my mind. I so easily focus on what is not perfect and forget about the things that are wonderful in my life. Seeing Ryan's reaction to the snow last week was so cool. I can't wait to see his reaction to all the lights and presents around Christmas. And the other amazing thing in my life...the tiny 11 week old baby inside of me. We will hear its heartbeat for the first time tomorrow...

Still no pictures

Still havent had the energy to post Ryan's Halloween pictures. I have been sick (again) for the last week and haven't felt like doing anything. This time it is a respiratory infection (although I am beginning to think it may be something different). I have two inhalers that are supposed to stop all the coughing, but they don't seem to be working yet. I am getting really frustrated with my sick body. Ryan has been really good through all of this and Rob has been a really big help. I have spent most of the time the last week on the couch and Rob has taken care of Ryan when he has returned home from work and gotten me food and medicine and other fun things. I am very thankful for both of them. Anyways, check out Rob's blog...he has been posting recently and I am very proud of his new "thing".

I love drugs

I had a really bad day yesterday. I was throwing up in the morning, and still in the afternoon. I even had the wristbands on, but they didn't help. I was able to talk to the nurse at my doctors office today and they are giving me an anti-nausea drug to help. Hopefully I will finally start to feel better. Ryan was such a good boy yesterday. I was bound to the couch for most of the day and he gave my lots of hugs when I was crying and played a lot by himself. He was a little annoying in the bathroom, though...he likes to mimick everything, including the sounds of throwing up.

We had a great time with Ryan on Halloween. He learned how to say trick or treat and looked so cute in his costume. (I promise, pictures will be posted this week). Isaac, Will and Anna all looked really cute in their costumes, also. We spent a good portion of the night at Ryan and Angela's house. My Ryan sat on the front porch with Rob and Ryan and ate M&M's. (He was with his dad, so he ate two little bags!) He also loved going to James and Charity's house...Frank was there on the front porch.